Thursday, February 18, 2010

Here I am again, it's time to update my blog, but I really don't know what to say, since I'm sure no-one is reading this.

We are expecting baby #3...a girl! I have had mixed feeling about this pregnancy, even though it was planned. The books all say that it's normal to have some mixed emotions, but that's little consolation! Our boys will be 8 and 5 when baby sister arrives. I'm out of the baby stage and am a little reluctant to re-enter! I was nervous with my first, but that was because I didn't know what I was getting into! Now I know what to expect and that makes the nerves even worse!...diapers, feedings, burping, insomnia, all the stuff (swings, cribs, strollers, car seats, clothes, blankets, pacifiers, toys, monitors, shall I go on...), and the hazy half conscious state of existence for the next 2 years! Am I over-reacting? Not to mention the process of bringing baby into the world makes me shudder...OUCH! Then there's the leaking from every possible opening in your body (you know what I mean...)

I am sounding a little negative aren't I....I know it's all worth it to have these miraculous blessings in our life. I do feel extremely blessed, and not to mention humbled, that I have the opportunity to be a mother. I also know that to experience these types of incredible blessings, we have to be tested. My test right now is just to put my head on straight and not worry so much about it all. Focus instead on the joy that my children bring to my life, and how much more joy we will experience in our home with the addition of a baby girl.

I know Marshall is ecstatic! He prayed aloud on several occasions for a baby sister...that was three years ago! I guess his prayers have been answered! What a faith building experience for him! For Marshall to feel that his Heavenly Father heard him and answered his prayers...not a quickly as he would have liked, but answered none the less!